I guess the moral of the story is that you gotta do it for yourself.
It's all just between you and your God.
Or you and your Universe.
Whatever but it's something about the silence being full of answers and knowing and possibility.
The velvet welcoming comforting nourishing silence.
The profound stillness.
Just you and your essence, you and your origin.
That's how you make it all work, that's how you make manifest your dreams.
Get down to the level of the pine needles and my friend Sarah's friend used to say.
Get down so low there's nowhere lower to go.
If you get low enough you realize that you are in fact the lilies of the field who do not need to consider their circumstances.
The lilies of the field don't toil or fret.
How will I survive? How will I be beautiful? How will I blossom and thrive?
You just obey the signs, you listen in the deep silence and you obey the inspired thoughts and ideas and impulses.
This morning my mother told me, "well, my dear girl, I think you've finally made it."
My mother said that this morning to me on the phone.
My mother told me I've finally done it.
I can't tell you for sure what exact details compounded for her to make such a proclamation.
I was telling about yesterday and how things finally came together.
All my crazy driving, sixteen hours of solo driving cross country, seeming vaguely insane, vaguely for nought.
But yesterday was the first radio show and evening show of my time here in this region.
And I got a lot of seriously positive feedback, a lot of good real support from people.
I feel revived, and vindicated, and not insane.
I feel good.
And my Mom got that.
So if my mom says I finally made it then I finally made it.
Today is the first day of the rest of our lives.
Let's make the most of it.
I have a songwriters in the round performance tonight right below where I'm sleeping these six nights at the Nickel City arts center.
I'm looking forward to meeting the other songwriters and performing my songs for them and the arts center audience.
Love to you where ever you are.
Just do whatever you want today because what you want is all you got.