I am rescheduling my show.
I realized yesterday that my head has been in a totally different place.
I didn't make a poster.
I didn't make a youtube link.
I didn't make a facebook event page.
I didn't start a fundraising link so people could buy virtual tickets.
I didn't make a little video of myself talking about the show to help get people excited for it.
I just forgot all about my old way of life.
I used to do those types of things almost automatically.
I was on a roll, I had momentum.
Well, what's so great about that?
That's the rat race we all talk about in life.
That's not creative living.
I'm not saying we don't need routines and schedules...and jobs....we do...we need jobs for sure.
What I am saying is that the best entrepreneurs, the best companies, the best artists, work in ways that don't keep them running in a circle.
The best people find ways to move forward into new ideas and new experiences.
I think this is the let your life lead you concept at it's best.
If you're always one step ahead in your mind with your planning and your prioritizing and your regimens, there isn't room for surprises.
Surprises can lead to new growth and new delight.
My show next week will be on Saturday night May 16th from 6-9pm Central Standard Time in the USA.
It's gonna be a loooooong show.
I'm so excited about it.
I'm going to broadcast live from my bedroom again because it's an intimate show and that way I can read the comments and have fun with everybody.
It'll be so great to reconnect with everybody.
And I'm gonna sing all the songs, all the songs we love together, all of them.
I can't wait.
I think I'll wear my flower crown.
Or my cowboy hat.
And maybe my sequin mini dress.......I don't know yet but whatever it is it'll be great!
I could not do it tonight, I just don't have it in me, I need one more week.
My mother has been staying with us all week and she's here until Monday.
She really is not much better.
She's still hearing voices and she's scared sometimes, and she can't find her medications even though they're always in her same bag in her room.
It's not looking good for her to go back to independent living with her big two bedroom apartment she's had for almost fifteen years now.
I don't think she will be able to stay there.
So the coming weeks will not be easier than this week was.
But at least I'm going to make sure I get my mind focused on promoting my show for next Saturday night and I work to promote it every day.
That's the least I can do and it's the best I can do.
I want to do a show once a month and no more, and my last one was the beginning of April.
I have other things that I've been invited to be a part of, other online performances, but they aren't as well attended as my own last show was.
So this will be it next Saturday night again for a while.
I'll try to talk about it every morning at least a little so it has a lot of hope and fun around it.
Tomorrow is Mother's Day and my mother will be here with us.
That's good, that's how it should be.
I just know now that I love myself and all my things that make me who I am.
I love my healthy body, my songs and my singing, my guitars and my clothes, my gardening and my cooking, my decorating of porches and houses.
I love my blog writing and my screenplay writing, my novel writing, my songwriting.
There's a little girl on the internet who does a little cheer about herself, saying, "I love my hair, I love my haircuts!"
And she goes on and on with all the things she loves in her life.
That's me too!
I love her and she's me and I'm her.
And may we all be that little girl, cheerleading ourselves into another joyous day!
And I love my Rob and I love my puppy Tobi.
And God bless my sweet daughter Ava Vaughn who's on a self-discovery journey of her own in Colorado this month.
Have a beautiful day.