I have found the key this summer.
This key unlocks my future.
This key unlocks the hearts of those who hear me sing.
This is the key that has been there all along, in my back pocket, but I didn't know how to use it.
This key is like Dorothy's ruby slippers.
She didn't know how to use them, but once she learned how, they had the power to take her home.
The key is giving the people who hear me sing a gift.
The gift is giving them what I have always felt on the inside from the music.
The key is to give them what I have always felt on the inside from the music, give it to them so they have that feeling too.
I'm starting to be able to do this consistently, in any situation.
This morning I received this message from a stranger.
I played on Hennepin Avenue yesterday in downtown Minneapolis.
Many people walked past me, some stopped to listen, some threw money in my tip jar, some took CDs.
I'm not sure which person this was.
Here's the message I received:
Saw you on Hennepin Avenue yesterday. Loved your CD. Could see the connection and love you were giving out there to us. Talented, great voice, beautiful and full of joy. Gonna come to more gigs in the future!
This is a very affirming message because I feel like this guy describes exactly what I'm feeling.
He is describing what it feels like to me when I'm using the key.
I kept getting literally choked up yesterday when I sang certain lines of certain songs.
The songs all mean so much to me.
The ideas I have about life all come shining through these songs.
It almost overwhelms me.
And instead of feeling lousy about leaving Rob's house on foot with my guitar on my back and taking the light rail train downtown and walking to the theater office and picking up my red wagon and pulling my wagon through the city streets to my performance spot and setting up my guitar and microphone and setting out my tip jar and my CDs......instead of feeling diminished by this.....I feel so emotional about it.
It's like the lowest smallest thing, humbling myself before the passers by. And yet I feel that I am a servant, a noble servant.
Dare I say for the Lord.
For the Great Creator.
For the Holy Spirit.
I love it.
Whatever it is, I'm getting it right.