I don't know whether I worked hard for the songs ever before.
I think I did at first.
For a while, in he middle, around the fourth album, I let the guys do some of the heavy lifting.
I was worried about repeating myself.
I was worried about sounding out of date.
I was worried about my limited chord selections.
So I let the guys I recorded with suggest cool riffs and unusual patterns on guitar for me to write to.
This worked and I got the albums made.
But this time I have a strong feeling that the songs need to be 100% organic, mine, my sensibility.
The songs that I still use from each of my albums, the ones I remember how they go and I feel like I want to still sing them, are the ones that came from the collaboration between me and my God, with no man in between us.
I need all the songs to come to me this way for this album.
But you don't just lie around on your bed and the songs come through you onto the paper.
For me it's been sifting through everything I've written..which is almost daily stuff...through the past eight months.
Yesterday I remembered vaguely a song I'd written on this very blog as the forum, written out a bunch of crazy lyrics and hummed a melody to myself at the time.
So much was going on that I never followed through and got it nailed down.
I never learned it for real, never memorized it, never performed it, never recorded it.
Yesterday I wrote to Magic Marc Percansky asking him if he remembered such a song.
Alakazam! That's what he wrote back as he presented the missing lyrics...found on a blog post dated October 2019.
I had no idea that the song was written that far back and I wouldn't have looked for it there.
Now that I've found it again, thanks to Marc, I'm not going to let it go.
If it makes the record, just for reference, or in case you remember it from before, it's currently called "Ruined For Life".
It's a pretty awesome song if I can get it all straightened out and fixed up and put into a presentable package.
It's very unruly right now.
I have about ten..maybe more...of these unruly pieces in the works.
I want ten for the album.
Rob says he's ready to start the project with me but I have to have the songs all done and give them to him all at once for him to start this time.
That's the best way so we can hear how the album goes, hear what it's all about, understand it up front.
I can do it.
I have time.
I have the resources.
I am saving up every penny I can to pay him myself so I don't need to do a fundraiser.
If we can't go to Europe which we probably can't this summer, then making this record is the absolute must do gift to myself, gift to Rob, gift to you.
It's the very best thing I can do in this world.
I have high hopes.
Okay, back to work!
P.S. Look at my Instagram account today if you want to see Tobi's haircut!