I set up my old desk in Rob's living room today.
I put away my little dog Aidan's things, his bed, his toy basket, his food and water dishes.
I carried my wooden desk up from Rob's basement on sheer strength of my grief.
A desk is what I long for now so I gave this to myself.
Rob's living room is small.
Rob wasn't happy when he saw what I had added.
He is asking for me to give up the idea.
But I simply need my desk right now.
It's staying for at least a little while.
There's a love seat of mine that's now just sort of sitting in the space between the living room and dining room.
I don't know where the love seat can go.
It's too heavy for me to move alone.
I have no idea.
I can't think about that right now.
Grief has me hog tied and blinded.
I called places around Minnesota about puppies the same kind as Aidan.
There's one available but they want $500.
I don't have that right now.
I consider that a red light from the Universe.
I see my light come shining, from the west down to the east.
Any day now, any day now, I shall be released.